So That Doesn’t Work

Well I was interested in doing a gall bladder flush, but that won’t work for me. I can’t tolerate the apple juice even once and I am supposed to keep doing that two weeks, twice daily. I tried it on Thursday and my stomach area got much bigger from inflammation and the pain was really bad. So I had to stop that, which was very disheartening.

I have been doing Reiki healing sessions on myself the last ten days or so. So there is that. I am using the lipotropic supplement, which is an assist for kidney and gall bladder function.

I believe that since my digestive health issues are long-standing that my ability to metabolize vitamins and minerals has been negatively impacted, hence the several vitamin deficiencies I have experienced lo these many years and the necessity to take extra vitamins and minerals supplements.

Since starting on the probiotics about six weeks ago I feel that I am digesting foods much better and am hoping that will positively impact those areas of absorption of, vitamin d, iron, and iodine.

I am taking  vitamin supplements once again the last week or so, as I am able to tolerate taking them, which is great news, cause I really need them. I still need to go out and buy some vitamin d supplement, because I haven’t take those in over a year, since I was told my number was too high, which I totally disagreed on. It was a little high, but it was the beginning of winter and I wasn’t going to be getting much sun and with a history of vitamin deficiency I knew it would go down again without them. So I am testing at 50, which is too low as far as I am concerned, mostly because I feel so much better when my number is up higher. All I have to say about this experience is that doctors are a dope about vitamins.

Then of course there was the incompetent doctor I had for years who refused to believe in my digestive issues. I will always regret trusting him, especially since I realize that many of my issues were about my gall bladder and my stomach and he always brushed those concerns off that I expressed. Then of course there is also the chiropractor who never suggested any solutions outside of chiropractic. They like my money, but when it comes to giving me healing assistance, not so much healing gets reciprocated for my money and my insurance money.

It really has been the Reiki treatments over the years that have saved me and healed me and helped me manage. I am going to call my Reiki teacher and ask her if she has a Reiki healing share going on next Saturday, she has them on the first Saturday of the month, when she does them, and if so go next Saturday, as that always makes me feel tremendously better. If not I will ask her if she is interested in doing a Reiki share with the two of us sometime soon.

As I really can’t afford to pay $60 or more for one hour of Reiki. She used to charge that more than six years ago, so I have no idea what she is charging now. I know that I should be willing to pay for it, but it is just that I have spent so much on coping with being sick the last few months already and spent several hundred dollars that was meant to stay in my bank account already. I will see what she says. There is also another Reiki practitioner/teacher who I really love, so I might call her as well, but that will involve money as well, which is a lot of money to me. Well, I’ll let you all know how that goes.

Glad to Say I Am Feeling Better

I’m glad to say that I continue to improve and heal from my sinus infection. I hardly ever sneeze. I cough only rarely. My sinuses now feel somewhat painful instead of incredibly painful to the touch and almost normal. Oh my goodness that feels so much better and is such a relief.

I am doing Reiki energy healing on myself almost every day, as well as taking as good care of myself as I can. The Reiki really makes a noticeable difference in my functioning level. I can’t sleep at all on the nights that I don’t do Reiki, so I am trying really hard to make sure that I do Reiki, as I need the healing sleep so much more when I am sick. I slept a lot of hours yesterday and the day before that. I take that as a good sign.

It’s supposed to be cold again this week, the cold air from the north pole is coming to visit once again. I have to say how much I hate hate hate this cold weather with wind chills at minus 10 or worse. So much of the winter has been this bad and it is trying and tiring to have to restrict myself to my very small apartment and to have to try to go out into the bad weather for groceries. Going out for groceries one day last week made me much worse for several days, which pretty much makes me feel as though I can’t go anywhere without someone to drive me. For right now, it is good to stay inside and continue to get better, rather than worse. It is March and winter and I am yearning for nicer weather, though that might take some time.

The Reiki Healing Circle

About four months ago I started going to a Reiki healing circle that meets once a month. I’ve met several other very nice people who do Reiki. They do Reiki healing for free for anyone who shows up to the group. I’ve gotten some very powerful healing from them. I’ve been trying to talk and write about that and all it has done and the specific healing work that I have been doing since each session, but it has been hard for me to find the words, but I will try to post about that soon.

This month, for the first time I asked and was able to participate, and give Reiki healing energy to two other people that came to the group. That was wonderful. The two people were both artists and as an artist myself, I love and feel energized being around artists. So I got some Reiki healing energy for myself, got to give to others, and had a great time. 🙂

Good News on Test Results

My tests came back negative, no H Pylori and negative on any problems on the testing for the polyp. All great news. All the causes of gastritis are things that I am not doing; no on use of aspirin, no on use of anti-inflammatories, no on use of alcohol and smoking, no on H Pylori. I get the stink eye from everyone I see when I tell them that, like they think I’ve got to be doing something I’m not admitting to. But I think the gluten intolerance/sensitivity issues could still be contributing to my still having these problems. Not sure.

Now I am going to get another appointment and try to convince the specialist to do a dna test for Celiac’s. I had one blood test done, but have been gluten free and so it wouldn’t show on the test. There is another test, but you also have to be eating gluten. The doctor said for two months, I told him there is no way I can eat gluten for two months.

I will be taking prilosec prescription medication for the next three months. I’ve been taking it for three days and already I can tell a big difference. My stomach is healing. I am hoping that it heals a lot and that would be so lovely. It would be totally great if my gluten issues where only a problem due to what I can heal from and eventually I can heal enough to eat gluten and be able to buy so much stuff cheaply and everywhere instead of having to spend so much extra money, time, effort, and energy living gluten free. It is expensive. It is exhausting.

I am giving myself Reiki healing energy and that always makes me feel better. I want to help myself to heal.

I am really looking forward to being well or even a little better, I could get used to a lot of being a little bit better and would be mind altered if I could really conceivably work towards total wellness. Ahh, bliss.

Home Again, Tests Done

I’m home again. The tests are done. So happy about that.

The doctor took samples for testing for H Pylori and Celiac’s Disease (which should not show up from the test because I have avoided gluten for over three years, so why would there be damage there?). He said it doesn’t look like there is Celiac’s Disease and I explained to him again that I have been gluten free for over three years, so I would have expected there to be healing. He said well the time for blood testing for that is when you are still eating that. And I explained to him again that my other doctor refused to take my issues seriously and so I decided to do the gluten free diet on my own. They removed a polyp, there will be testing and I’ll know results in about a week.)

He said I have a mild case of hiatal hernia. He was unconcerned about that, said lose more weight, as though that is the only way to make it better, no diet suggestions were offered. Fortunately I know about that and have modified my own diet. (Yes well I am glad that it has improved since October, it has been months of food eliminations. I still can’t eat my favorite foods or basically anything that is good, and that doesn’t seem a mild issue to me.)

I have mild diverticulosis/diverticulitis. and duodenitis. He said there was gastritis, and he gave me a prescription for that) and they all quizzed me on was I using any pain meds, no I’m not and I’m not overusing them either. I don’t think that they’ve been believing me on that, cause each person I see there asked me several times. I don’t use pain meds of any kind.I’m glad that my stomach issues have improved all these months I’ve been waiting for tests, as well. But whatever the cause it is not from recent medication use. If I have H Pylori this could be the cause. (I had H Pylori five years ago and my doctor says it is possibly a recurrence.) We’ll know in a week or so. I really would have preferred having that test done in November, but got shuttled over to the specialist and waiting for almost three months for testing.

Now we wait for the results and then make another appointment to a doctor, which one depends on what the results say. So glad this is all over with. It went well. I gave myself Reiki energy healing yesterday and today and I think that helped me a lot to feel better, to lessen my anxiety, and to get me through the special diet and prep for the test.

I Am A Healer, Oh Yeah

I have been doing some Reiki distance healing one-on-one sessions for a friend. (What is Reiki?) I’ve wanted to do this for a long time. Several things blocked me and got in my way of doing them.

First I wasn’t sure if what I thought I could do was possible long distance. I wanted to do intense Reiki healings for others. But for the time being many of the people that I’ve wanted to help heal don’t live near me. That’s the thing about making friends online, it is great to have someone, but it is painful that they aren’t closer. I’ve done healing sessions for others and it was powerful. I believe that I am gifted, though I vacillated on that for a long time.

Second although I am a Reiki teacher I don’t teach and I don’t do a lot of Reiki healing energy sessions. I mostly do Reiki distance healing, which is when you have a list of friends, loved ones, family, etc that you do a short Reiki distance session for, about five to ten minutes a day and this short session sends each person Reiki every hour for the next 24 hours. A short session is often all that I can do. I love to send my friends, especially my survivor friends, healing energy. Yes it is effective, but I wanted to do more. I wanted to someday help clients to do deep intense healing.

Thirdly I don’t usually do more because of my health issues. My hands, neck, and shoulders can get worse and often do. So I get hesitant and concerned. My health has positively increased incrementally for some time and I was now well enough to return to the exploring of the possibility.

Fourthly I am realizing and acknowledging recently that on an unconscious level I still believe that I am unworthy, due to my mother’s many abuses of me. I wish that wasn’t so, from the bottom of my heart. I wish that all the damage from her was gone, healed. Because of that I think that I was stuck in procrastination. If I didn’t do anything, I couldn’t confirm or deny the old beliefs lies. Here’s the thing, now I know. I am worthy. I always knew I was a healer, but doubted my worthiness.

I am a healer.

Healer della donna.

Healer of women.

I am so happy.:) I had thought that I could do a very good job with this. I was right. I am a healer. I always knew, but now I know how good I am. 🙂 I am so happy that I am helping my best friend to heal. I am going to help others too.

When I became a Reiki student five years ago I heard several students talking about how you shouldn’t call yourself a healer, that is for someone else to say. They said  you shouldn’t call yourself a healer, that is prideful, that is wrong.

I am a healer. I am so proud.

I Would Kiss You, But You’re Too Vapid

Lol.

I was talking with my friend Eric on the phone recently. He reminded me of the phrase, I would kiss you, but you’re too vapid. I had said it.

He was visiting last summer. We had a great lunch, at one of my favorite places. Then we walked over to the nearby lake. We were sitting out by the lake on the grass. It was a lovely day. Lots of people were coming and going around the area. We sat in the shade and talked. He did some reiki healing work on me and we talked some more.

The phrase is funny, I have to admit, even taken out of context. I was talking about some guy, sorry I can’t remember what guy I was referring to. Lol. But right when I said it a couple were walking by behind me and overheard what I said.

Eric wanted them to know, I wasn’t saying it about him. No, I wasn’t. Lol. Really, very nice strangers, he is a nice guy. Yes, really, someone well worth kissing.

No, he’s not vapid. If he was we couldn’t be friends. If he was vapid, he wouldn’t want me. If he was vapid, I couldn’t make a friendship with him. I like my men tasty.

I talk like that, really I do, but remembering it only made me laugh and think for several hours of summer. That was excellent.