My Poetry

Two haiku that I wrote recently. I have only written a few and find them very challenging and frustrating to work on, but I like the way that they turn out. I hope you like them. They are both based on the show Nurse Jackie that I binge-watched on Netflix when I was very sick.

Resigned

Well that’s life in the

Balkins, said the dying man,

quoting an old friend.

 

A Haiku

Don’t eat by the urine!

the administrator screamed,

Nurse Jackie’s E.R.

My Poetry

A Rude Winter Poem

so how cold
is it?
he said over the phone

okay I’ll play

vags close up
breasts grow perky

testicles go north
though they wish
they’d gone south

snot icicles appear
toes try to run away

ears hide and weep
you hear them snuffling
under the hats and scarfs

well he chuckled
that’s what you
get
for living
in Minnesota

I don’t live here!
I was born here

been in 20 states
lived in 2 more

is it my fault
I have a connection
to the land?

though I develop
a sneaking suspicion
by mid-winter
that it doesn’t exist

I might be deluding
myself on that

How warm is it?

Mid-60s he says.

Go to hell!
laughter, not mine
No I take that back
it’s even warmer there

Go to Antarctica!

My Poetry

Cruelty Rejoices

When someone shows you who they are believe them.”
~ Maya Angelou

why would you say that to me?
to see your reaction
he would always say

it was the same
reaction every time
hurt dismay

but

I used to think
that truth
was elsewhere

now I know
he was telling the truth
cruelty rejoices
when inflicting pain

the sight of it
so sweet

sometimes kindness is the lie

in word and deed
he was telling the truth
about himself
cruelty is one
of the most honest things

~ Kate

My Poetry

Next Year is Leap Year

next year is leap year
and so my mind
started to whirl

if by next year
I fall in love
with someone
worthy of me

if next year
my body has
less pain
my mind
more clarity

if next year
I meet
someone who
wants to see me

and wants to
be with me
then let them
I say

if next year
I think
I breathe
I live

maybe
maybe
so

maybe, I say,
let love
come for me

but if
next year
someone loves me
enough
and if
I love them enough

let them ask

the mind ran wild
in one moment
just figuring out
next year
the year
of leaping

sometimes sexism
works that way
automatically
without thought
showing indoctrination,
occupation of the mind

men can
offer marriage
every year
women only
every fourth

does that
mean we are
only one
fourth as good?

or four times as good?

but why can’t we
just be
equal?

~ Kate

My Poetry

One of Us Was Telling the Truth

driving home after dark
well lit street
biking along
green light
open road

suddenly scared
car swerves quickly
into bike lane

stops short
blocks me
not turning
it hovers

I yelled
telling him
what I thought
and felt

as car turned
his head and shoulders
thrust bizarrely
out the window
slurred, “I love you too!”

one of us
was sober

one of us
won’t forget

one of us
told the truth

~ Kate

My Poetry

My revenge visualizations are a grouping of poems we write that address revenge that our system feels to our child sexual abusers. They are only poems, nothing more, but some of them are more descriptive than others, as such, I wanted to include a warning about the poems, they may be difficult or unsettling to read or process. Please use caution when reading.

Revenge Visualization #7

he wakes

from dreaming

though it is

his own screams

that wake him

sweat drenched

and shaking

he shuffles to

the bathroom

attempting to

shake off the dream

of being trampled by

mother elephants

in their rage

of him coming

too close to their

babies

returning to the

bedroom

he moves to

stand by the window

outside

below

I stand

staring up

at the moon

face lit,

smiling.

~ Kate

My Poetry

Being Many

many petals
on one flower

many branches
on one tree

many threads
on one tapestry

many pieces
on one quilt
one whole

many people
in one body
one person

many parts
one whole
one me

~ Kate

My Poetry

ahh spring

spring,
it comes with
cold fingers

icy slushy
snow filled days
dark rainy drops
down the back
of your neck

clouds instead
of sun

stepping out
into
cold and dark
to land
in a sunken mess
of grass and sog

deep dark
creeping wet
burrows into
toes

frozenness
how is this
different?
in your mind
it is

winter behind you
summer ahead
ahh spring

~ Kate

My Poetry

Stardust

if it is true
that we live
many lives,
let me not
be a person
once again
let me not
struggle again
with such pain
let me not
know of abuse
betrayal and suffering

there are those
who say
humanity is the highest
form of existence
I cannot agree
so instead
let me choose
a life of joy

let me next
be a sunflower
so I can know
the sun shining upon my face
with glee
to dig my roots
deep into the soil
to be kissed
by the rain

then a butterfly
so I can know
the sensation
of flying free
and breathing deep
to smell the air
and quiver with
the anticipation
of another dawn

then throw my elements
into the air
let me travel
back to the stars,
once I was stardust
let me be it again
reveling and dancing
in infinity

~ Kate

My Poetry

I Want to Give You Pause

I want to bump up against you
I purpose my words on line
for the exact impact I want

never for the perfect word
on the perfect line
rather

some imperfect words
with imperfect sounds
and imperfect pause

I want to bump up against you
not just with words
but with spaces
and pauses

we are interacting
you and I
in a dance

if I guide you perfectly
fluidly
what have you learned
of me?

if I guide you imperfectly
in my world
you have not only danced
with me
you have danced with my soul.

I want to give you pause.

Come dance with me.

~ Kate