My Poetry

Baby Girl
mommie suckled baby
fed little me with body
mommie first
and only one
mommie is love
only love baby knows
baby sees mommie
sees love sees my beloved
mommie is first
mommie is
the whole wide world
i love you mommie
instead hurt baby
hurt ache pain
said baby is bad girl
mommie raped baby girl
said baby is to blame.
~ Kate

Working on Healing

I’ve been wanting to work more intensely on my healing for a few months now. Now that I am living in a safe place and have been able to catch up some on my sleep, I feel the time has come.

I’ve thought over and over on where to begin. Now that I have all my books home with me, I’ve brought out all of them and looked through them, trying to figure out what to read and what I want to focus on now. Nothing has seemed like the right book to begin with.

It has been lovely having my computer access once again. I’m able to spend lots of time online surfing around, which I couldn’t do for a long time. I’ve been finding some great healing links lately. I’ve added them to my Resources healing pages. I was especially happy that I was able to add some links to the Mother Daughter Sexual Abuse page and the Infant Sexual Abuse page.

I had suggested to a friend of mine that she read through some of the article links I posted to a few of my resource healing pages a few weeks ago. Then the idea that I should do that as well kept coming up in my mind. I think that is where I will start.

I decided to start where I believe I need some review and that is the same place that I recommend others to start, at Grounding/Coping Skills and Self-Soothe/Comfort Skills. Then I am planning on working through the links at my Healing from Child Sexual Abuse page. I’ll meander from there.

I have decided to read, take notes, make up lists, take some new steps, and share about my journey and the process on my blog.

Infant Sexual Abuse Resources

Notice: This blog is a healing blog by a survivor of child sexual abuse. This blog does not include specific details about child sexual abuse, fiction or non-fiction, nor do I post any links on my resource pages that do.

Survivor Resource Pages (Forty pages of resources, non-profit organizations, articles, and healing support for survivors of child sexual abuse, rape, sexual assault, domestic violence, and dealing with the aftermath of child sexual abuse.)

Healing from Child Sexual Abuse

Infants Most Likely Abuse Victims: A Hidden Pattern

Sexual Abuse in Infancy

Infant Rape

Signs of Sexual Abuse in Infants

Signs of Sexual Abuse in an Infant

Physical Signs of Sexual Abuse on a Baby

How to Recognize Signs of Abuse in a Toddler or Baby

The Long Term and Developmental Effects of Sexual Abuse on Infants


Push by Sapphire (Note: I have not seen the movie, so I cannot recommend it, though the book is powerful and healing.)

Thicker Than Water by Kathryn Harrison

An infant is a child under the age of one. I have not been able to find more resources,  but wanted to post this because I think it is an important topic and hope that there will be more to add to this page.