It is that time of year once again, May! May is my birthday month. So get ready for lots of book and reading quotes.
I’ve missed being around here so much, but have been dealing with a lot of fatigue and health issues and even though I wanted to be here, I had very little energy and a lot of health issues and pain.
I saw my doctor about a month ago, again, because I still had a lot of questions that she hadn’t answered from previous appointments, questions that I asked her point blank and she did not answer. We got into another argument about my health issues, my thyroid medication daily amount, and other testing that I wanted done.
She told me that I can’t have all the tests done that I want, cause apparently she thinks that I am getting my requests from dubious internet sites, which I’m not. I had to defend my right to have tests done. She had agreed to testing for Epstein-Barr fatigue syndrome and yelled at me that it would not do any good, as there is nothing to be done about that, it’s a virus and there is nothing to be done about it. I told her it mattered, it was important, and she needed to run the test. In fact, there are plenty of things that I can do to make it better and to make my life better, and to improve my immune system, foods to avoid and foods to eat, etc. etc. etc. But apparently from her perspective that is not a prescription medication, so none of that matters. She is awful. I haven’t been back to see her since.
I found out by reading online that she didn’t bother to do the right test, the one that will tell me if the virus is active now, an essential and important medical question that she should have wanted to answer for me. She only did the test that showed that I have been exposed to the virus, which just means that at some point in my life I had the virus and it was active. I had to argue with her to get the wrong test done!
So I go back one more time to get my blood tested for another thyroid medication adjustment, in two weeks, and then I will find a new doctor. I have picked out two very reputable clinic systems to try. In Minneapolis there are tons of hospitals, clinics, and doctors, especially in the downtown area, where I live. So I will definitely have plenty to choose from.
In the meantime I am continuing to eat as healthy as possible, taking my supplements that help do so much, continue with the hemp capsules that I started taking a month ago, and continue losing weight (I have lost 20 pounds.) Right now I’m losing a few pounds a month, but I think that as I continue and as I feel better I will lose more per month.
“I was usually filled with a sense of something like shame until I’d remember that wonderful line of Blake’s- that we are here to learn to endure the beams of love- and I would take a long deep breath and force these words out of my strangulated throat: “Thank you.”
~ Anne Lamott
“I’m here to be me, which is taking a great deal longer than I had hoped.”
~ Anne Lamott, Plan B: Further Thoughts on Faith
“You have to know how to accept rejection and reject acceptance.”
~ Ray Bradbury
“You don’t have to defend or explain your decisions to anyone. It’s your life.”
~ Mandy Hale
“We aren’t a drop in the ocean, but are the ocean, in drops.”
~ Anne Lamott, Some Assembly Required: A Journal of My Son’s First Son