Sleep Deprivation

I never get enough sleep. I never sleep deeply. That started when I was very little. I believe that is due to being sexually abused as a child. I’ve tried lots of different things before going to sleep. Some work. Most don’t. I’ve spent decades half asleep.

Now when I don’t get enough sleep one thing works great for me. I found it a few years ago when a friend of mine, who is also a Reiki teacher, went to the great local rock/crystal shop. I found some great stones there that day that I had picked out intuitively. One of the nice things about the shop is that they had a copy of a great book at the counter for reference, Love is in the Earth by Melody. It was nice to look in the book and find out ways that the stones have been used for healing. Doing that also helped confirm to me that I was picking out the right stones to take home.

One of the stones I took home was pyrite. It is a solid oval, about three inches long and two inches wide and about an inch thick. I hold it in my hand. Here is a photo that looks sort of like mine: pyrite. In the book was a reference to using it when  you need a nap. I thought, this is great, I always need more sleep.

A few days later I was had a weekend class to attend. I didn’t get any sleep on Saturday night, but still had to be up early and at the class the next morning. I took the pyrite stone with me. For the first hour of the class I held it in my hand. It heated up, very hot, and then after an hour, when I didn’t feel tired anymore, it had slowly cooled down. It does this every time and every time it makes me feel as though I had gotten some good sleep and rest. It’s something that has always helped me and been very healing. It’s something that has always worked.

It’s just a good idea to not do it late in the day, because otherwise you will be wide awake for hours.

Connectedness to Stones/Crystals

Working on my issues with grounding and trying to figure out connectedness has shown me that there are huge issues of attachment and that it is okay to be where I/we are in this process. I am starting to see that my issues with grounding are a  big part of the mother-daughter sexual abuse that I went through at the hands of a sadist mother who abused me instead of loving and protecting me.

Attachment is meant to happen with a baby to her mother. I did not have that. I never used to think that I had huge attachment issues. I attached to others to survive. It got me through.

In fact, I attached too much to others, to people who mostly did not want me or love me. Over-attachment to others is an attachment issue. It doesn’t help that I am intuitive and empathetic. Having attachment and connectedness is a part of my process of healing from mother-daughter sexual abuse. I think I was sort of in denial about it all.

I suppose the acceptance of this emerging reality of the deep consequences of mother-daughter sexual abuse is totally appropos of my connnectedness to stones and crystals. Stones are literally of the earth, of the mother. They are a part of the earth and a product of the earth. I would suppose that their primary attachment and connectedness might be to the earth, but really I don’t want to speak for them. I really don’t know.

I have a strong connection to stones and crystals. I don’t know when I figured that out. But it has been there for a long time. I loved them as a child. I wanted to have lots and lots of them.

At a certain point I started buying a few small stones and crystals. I started learning about some of them and buying specific ones to use in healing work. I bought some when I would come across them. But I did not learn a lot and I did not use them a lot. I liked having them. I liked having them near me.

I thought that I had a connection to stones/crystals. I felt them when I touched them. When I bought one it was because that stone seemed to get my attention and I believed that it wanted to come home with me. I would hold one stone and work on healing in my life. It seemed to help.

I loved to go to one cart in a local small mall. The seller had small, medium, and large crystals. I loved being near them. I used to go there just to touch the large crystals. I could hear them singing. It was beautiful.

When I started taking Reiki classes I was drawn more strongly to them. Reiki can be used in conjunction with stones and crystals to increase the power of a healing. My Reiki teacher and others validated my belief that I was intuitely connected to the stones and crystals.

I have my stones in my bedroom in a wooden bowl. I have made sure that they travel with me, through all my travels in the last two years, even when most of my belongings were in storage, my stones were with me.

After moving here to this house almost a year ago, I picked out several stones intuitively, which is what I usually do, to do some healing work. I looked them up in my crystal books and discovered they were just the right stones to use. I have them somewhere around my bedroom. I don’t hold them. I don’t know exactly where they are. They are just there. Stones are like that. They like to go where they are needed and be left alone to do their work.

As I’ve mentioned I have trouble with grounding to the earth and to objects or to even holding objects. I used to touch stones, but I usually don’t usually anymore, but now I don’t have to in order to connect with them.

Oddly I am drawn to hematite stones. I have several of them myself. They are a metal stone that has a strong connection to the earth, a very grounding stone. During my last Reiki class I had a connection to a hematite stone while holding it and from the stone I saw how it was connected to other hematite stones.

I realized that I have very strong connections to stones/crystals that I can access without touching. So I am trying to remind myself to think of the stones and to focus of my connectedness to them, in my room, in the world and to access them for healing and connectedness.

Paths of Healing 1

Essential Oils:

AromaWeb

What is Aromatherapy

Essential Oil Safety Information

Essential Oils Guide

Essential Oils Guide: Aromatherapy Essential Oils

What Are Carrier Oils?

Aromatic Blending

Therapeutic Blending

Aromatherapy and Oil Diffusers

Aromatherapy for Emotional Well-Being

Aromatherapy and Insomnia

Essential Oils for the Mind

Essential Oils for the Body

Essential Oils for Spirituality (Includes Suggestions of Oils for Grounding, Cleansing, Gratitude, Grief)

Meditating With Essential Oils

Praying With Essential Oils

Essential Oils to Cleanse, Purify, and Combat Negativity

Smudging:

Smudging

Native American Smudging Rituals

Reiki:

The International Center for Reiki

What is Reiki?

How Does Reiki Heal?

Reiki and the Healing Drum

Distant Healing and Human Etheric Field

Reiki and the Shadow Self

Crystals and Stones:

Crystals and Gemstones (Including a Listing of Uses)

Crystal Dictionary of Metaphysical Meanings

Animal Totems/Guides:

Animal Totems

How to Find Your Animal Totem

Finding Your Totem Animal

Discovering Your Animal Totems

Introduction to Animal Guides

Spirit Guides:

How to Meet Your Spirit Guides

Drumming:

Why is Drumming Healing?

The Physical and Emotional Effects of Drumming

Spirit of Drummers: Drummers Speak on Drumming

What is a Drum Jouney?

What is a Community Drum Circle?

Meditation:

Mudras: Meditation in Your Hands

Dance:

Finding Relationship to Rhythm

Dancing to a Different Drum

An Interview with Gabrielle Roth

Mine is a Dancing Path (Interview with Gabrielle Roth)

The 5 Rythyms Video by Gabrielle Roth