This is one of the hard ones. I have been working on self-care and body love for a long time. One of the things that I think has worked the best was telling my body and different parts of my body out loud that I love it.
I realize that I need a stronger connection to my body. Being dissociative means I have a weakened connection to my body and that it comes and goes more often and more easily than others might experience. I also realize that because I have been chronically disabled, I have to cope with a high level of pain and limitations. This too encourages a high level of disconnection and dissociation from my body and my life.
Because I have a weaker and more vulnerable connection, it is harder to work on and harder to fix, but it also means that it is more important that I do so as well.
What works really good is to tell my body out loud every day I love you, my body, three times in a row. I can feel my body respond. I become flooded with happiness and joy. My body is so happy that I love it and that I tell it so. At that moment it feels close to me and I also realize how far apart we are and that I need to work more on drawing her closer to me in love and acceptance.
I also am still working on telling specific body parts that I love them. I am currently working on telling my heart and my lungs that I love them.
One recent development was when the Teens mentioned that they wanted to take more hot showers. I thought about it a lot and realized that I was cold a lot more than was comfortable. I get cold easily and warm up slowly. I have always been this way, but I know that my health issues have contributed to this.
Being dissociative of my body and dissociative one from another in the system was due to being sexually abused as a child. My health issues and pain contributed to the issues around my body and contributed to my desire to be more and more disconnected. Being more dissociated from my body had allowed me to be inside it with coldness and discomfort, without noticing and without changing things and making myself more comfortable.
I am taking more showers and plan on buying a shower chair so that we can stay in there longer and with less pain. I have a space heater that I use when I am cold. I am noticing more if my feet are cold when I am watching tv or on the computer and put on my fuzzy footies more often. I bought a bunch more of them recently when they were on sale.
I realize that making my body more comfortable and warmer by taking better care of it is as important as any of the other body love work that I have done. I am also trying to pay more attention to how my body is feeling overall, tired, sick, hungry, sad and responding to that in a more consistent manner. All of this work is helping strengthen my connectedness to my body.