There are some good free things out there on the internet since the start of social distancing. They are in no way compensation for living in a pandemic, one million citizens infected, or the loss of life. A distraction. An entertainment. Yes. A joy even, sometimes.
There are some free show available on hbo. There is free Battlestar Galactica episodes on Syfy with ads.
Best of all, for me, is free daily opera streams from the Metroplitan Opera. I’ve watched almost twenty operas! My favorite is Parsifal. My least favorite is Eugene Onegin. I absolutely loved Wagner’s Ring series of four operas. From everything that I have ever seen or heard about Wagner, I never would have thought I would love his work. Sometimes you just have to try something in order to find out.
I still consider her my new therapist. I really like her as a therapist. She has better skills than any other therapist I have seen, which is incredible.
I’m really working hard in and out of the therapy hour. Some huge new revelations have happened recently.
I realized something last week that was huge, but here’s the thing, it was totally obvious, I had just never seen it before. It all started about a month ago from something my sister said. I’ll try to write about that soon.
This week marks the sixth week that I have been doing therapy by phone. That too is going good. I tend to talk almost all the way through the therapy hour, by design, but on the phone I am trying to pause more for comments than I previously would have gotten through her emotional energy, facial expression, and body language. The biggest thing about therapy is that the clinic decided to let the therapists make weekly appointments instead of only bi-weekly. It is much appreciated and much needed during this social distancing and pandemic time. I am frustrated, enraged, triggered, and saddened about all that is going on out there.
I think about posting every day and think of all the blog friends I have come to know over eleven years of blogging. If you are gone, I still think of our connections and send you love and good and healing thoughts. If you are still blogging or a new blogger to me, stop in and I’d love to hear from you. Good and healing thoughts to you all.
So I figured out there is a fore-shadow for a few weeks before mercury goes into retrograde. Yeah lucky me. 🙂 I’m particularly, negatively sensitive to those times of the year when mercury is in retrograde. I learned of this when I decided to move out of state about ten years ago. To those of you who don’t believe planets’ movements around the solar system can negatively impact you, you are probably not susceptible to these negative influences, and congratulations to you.
I read recently that mercury is in retrograde 19% of the year, so yeah it is something you have to deal with and manage, if it effects\affects you. I learned that there is a shadow that can start a few weeks in advance and that it can fore-shadow the kind of impact of the coming retrograde.
So my refrigerator stopped working over the weekend. I was happy to get another used one on Monday from the apartment workers.
So I will try to be extra gentle with myself and take good care of myself. And I will try to delay making any major changes in my life during the retrogrades. I just don’t need to make that level of bad decisions anymore. Life is better when I can accept what my life is like without judging or doubting it all, in every area of my life. 🙂
I went to bed very early on new year’s eve and found myself awake and refreshed at midnight. So I guess the universe wanted me to be there and aware.
After a few hours I decided to grab a pizza and watched the movie Frozen. There are so many parts of the movie that remind me of my childhood; I teared up a few times. Still had a great time.
I was looking around online for the show The Alienist on tnn. Bizarrely I found it available, with commercials, on their app. I thought for sure I couldn’t find it without extra cost.
I loved the book so much when it first came out. I never met anyone else who had even read it. I was hoping the series would be as good. I didn’t think so. But the series did show a lot of evil; in the killer, the politicians, the dirty cops, the millionaire businessmen, the pimps, and every casual observer in the streets who see and do nothing.
Shockingly I still had great fun bingeing the show and alternated with watching the parts of the Rose Parade that I wanted to with the sound on. I hate parade commentary. I love bands and thought the bands were great. 🙂
I was falling asleep trying to finish the last episode. But did it. I was so tired out from the huge focused session and because I had been awake 14 hours. So I went to bed and sleeping time. All in all, a good day and a great start to a new year.
“When I was a little girl who didn’t fit in, I read ‘Julie of the Wolves’ and decided that running away to live with a wolfpack was a really great life plan, and to be honest I’m starting to wish I hadn’t grown out of the idea.”
“There were so many books on so many shelves, I knew I could live to be old without coming to the end of them. The sound of pages turning was the sound of magic. The dry liquid feel of paper under fingertips was what magic felt like.”