Hi, I’m Kate. Welcome to my blog. Beloveds, I am so glad that you are here.
I am a survivor of abuse. I have been working on healing for over twenty-five years. I believe very strongly in healing. I can heal. You can heal. Together, in community, we can heal.
I am an artist. I am a poet. I am a writer. I am a blogger. I believe strongly in healing, in healing through art and creativity, in healing through the moment by moment life that I live, and in healing in community.
I was abused by my mother, in every way, mentally, emotionally, verbally, spiritually, physically and sexually. She was the first abuser, but not the only one. She made possible everything else that happened in my life that was abuse.
I am disabled and have several physical diagnoses. I have a broken bone in my lower spine, which causes instability and pain. I have also been diagnosed with Epstein-Barr syndrome, trans-mandibular joint disorder in my jaw, stomach and gall bladder issues and Hashimoto’s thyroid disease. I attribute all my diagnoses, both physical and mental, to abuse, almost exclusively to my mother’s sexual and physical abuses. I have been disabled for a long time.
I am multiple. I have been multiple almost all my life. I have been diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Depression, and Anxiety. I am proud that I have survived. I have a lot to be proud of. If you are a survivor of abuse, you have a lot to be proud of as well.
I currently describe myself as an advocate/activist. I am an advocate for myself. I am an advocate for human rights and equity.
Finding healing resources is a difficult process, especially when you need it the most. I have many pages of healing resource links under the Resource button at the top of each of my blog pages. The Resource page has links to over 30 pages of resources for survivors of trauma and abuse. Here is a link to it as well:
Please know that in your darkest days and darkest moments there are whole groups of people who can relate, who like you have dealt with what you are dealing with, and who can understand and care about you. You might not know these people, these other survivors, but they are there and I know and believe they will come into your life as you heal. Reach out for them. You are not alone.
Please know that if you are a survivor of child sexual abuse that you are not alone. There is someone out there who can relate and knows what you are going through. Healing happens alone, but quicker and more profoundly in combination with others.
Therapists, hotlines, and support groups can all be helpful and healing, if they are the right match for you and are non-abusive.
Just keep reminding yourself, despite all the evidence to the contrary, I am loved, I am understood, I am valued, I am courageous, I am not alone. Because it’s all the truth.
Interacting with others is a great place to practice safety, boundaries, rules, and limitations. And if you can’t find any people to do that with there are always pets, online, writing, blogging, your imagination, potential acquaintances and potential friends through common interest clubs or groups. Keep trying, keep healing, everyone needs a good friend. If you don’t have one, start working on learning how to be one to yourself; that is the most important friendship you will ever have.
Please be aware that this blog is potentially triggering. I do not use trigger warnings on any of my posts. If I do post about an abuse memory I will note that at the top of the post. Take steps to read when you are feeling safe and please avail yourself of the resource pages on learning positive coping methods and managing effects and triggers.
If triggered please take care of yourself first, you are the most important person in your life and deserve all the love and care and more that you extend to others. Learning self-care is a huge component in healing, life will give you plenty of chances to work on learning good self-care.
Good and healing thoughts to you.