For Christmas last year I decided to buy and give myself a present for my favorite body part and my least favorite body part, as exercises in self care and body love. I chose body lotion for my least favorite body part and hair conditioner for my favorite body part, my hair.
I love my hair. I have been in love with my hair since I was in my early twenties. It hasn’t always been a wonderful love affair, bed hair being something that I have really hated at times in my life, but it is a very strong love. I have dark brown hair and dark brown eyes and they have always been things, as an adult, that I am proud of and have a lot of love for.
I love the different colors in my hair and I love the soft, silky way that it feels when I touch my hair. I had noticed that my hair was not normal for the last few years. I think that a big part of the issue is that my health issues with my tummy and digestive system interferes with properly metabolizing all the vitamins and minerals that my body needs. Another issue is that I had gotten out of the habit of using conditioner.
When my tummy issues are very bad and when I take the strongest medication for that issue I have had hair loss and I love my hair so much, it is hard to cope with even some hair loss. I won’t take the strongest medication and I try my best to improve this health issue. I have tried doing less handling of my hair, less shampooing and no conditioning. But my hair got kind of dull.
So for my Christmas present I wanted to go out and buy a really nice conditioner for my hair. I wandered around the store several visits and just could not decide. There are so many things and then there was the gluten intolerance concern and I wanted to buy something that I knew for sure was gluten free. So I went home each time without anything. Finally I bought some shampoo/conditioner combination and that was awful, nothing improved and it felt wrong on my hair. I had had bad experiences with this product in the past, so I really regretted giving it another chance.
Finally I bought a conditioner that fit my hair type and started using it. The first and second times brought an improvement and that made me very happy and satisfied that I could take small steps to improve my body and to show love and care for it. I am continuing with that. Today when I showered, I shampooed and conditioned my hair. It just feels soo lovely. 🙂