Letter to Self, While a Fetus

(mentions physical abuse by mother, when pregnant)

Dear one. You inspire me. I think of you and I am overwhelmed with awe.

Your courage is huge. In your dark and liquid abode.

In a hostile and hateful environment you fought to live and to continue. Even though our female parent tried to end your life several times while in the womb, you and your strength endured. My mind is boggled by your strength, little baby girl.

I just want to wrap you up in my arms and protect you. I want to fight for you, because I know your unique self and the unique gifts that you bring to the world.

You chose life. It still staggers and amazes me how much love you have for life and for loving others, how much you believe in goodness and gentleness and how much that has effected me all of my life.

If I was in your place I don’t think I could have made those choices, though I have to admit I make those kinds of choices each day. Even so, I cannot imagine ever being as brave as you.

You are so tenacious. I am tenacious because of you. Everything that I am is from you and due to you and emanates first from you.

I love you. I will always admire and love you and try to live my life in a way that honors you and your courage.

Sweet baby girl, I love you.

My love reaches out to you, from all these years away, and envelops you. You are not alone. You are loved. I am here. I will always be here with you. You will never be alone. You will always be loved. Through all the years I will always love and parent you.

Kate

4 thoughts on “Letter to Self, While a Fetus

    • Hi Kat,

      Thanks sweet friend for the encouragement and support. It means so much. Yes I will, I promise.

      I am planning on doing a series of posts on letters to self. What I have learned is that all of those selves are still here inside of me, the fetus, the baby, the five year old, etc. And that I get to love each of them. It has been a profound journey, it has taken me almost a year to start writing these letters. I’m proud and excited about where they will take me.

      Good and healing thoughts to you.

      Kate

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    • Hi Dear Liz,

      Thank you dear heart. Your friendship means so much to us. Thank you for sending the light and peace, we feel it when we read it from you.

      Good and healing thoughts to you and to those you love.

      Kate

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