I am trying to start lots and lots of things and put aside my thoughts and feelings about the starting. I have been working on this for some time, but really plan on committing a lot of time to these efforts once I have moved.
We all compare ourselves to some of the best artists and their best works and to the most healed survivors of abuse or others who were never abused as children or someone else just from the outside looking in and concluding what they are dealing with without really knowing the truth of their inner life and inner struggles. Comparisons like that are very daunting for anyone and cause us all to fear and to pause and to not make small efforts that will slowly, but surely bring healing and competence into our lives.
It’s important to remember that no one starts out proficient at anything, except a very few rare exceptions. Most of us start out as true beginners. Starting and doing are valuable, no matter where we are on our skill levels. No one learns skills or develops proficiency without practicing, doing, effort.
One thing is certain if we don’t start, we will most likely remain in the same place and space. Another thing that is certain is that life and our own soul, and others, will keep bringing us around to face this and help encourage us into doing. Doing may not feel like a healing tool. But it is. Doing is one of the most essential parts of healing, and indeed, in life.
Kate Is Rising 
Starting is the very most hardest. We find after we start and the right part is in “her spot” then we can do a lot of things. It’s giving us a great amount of problem in going to school and doing homework on time. Please continue to write about it and add insight as you get to figuring this out. Many will be grateful. In the meantime until it gets figured out, please know that someone out here has felt the avoidance too.
Our best,
Anns
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Hi Anns,
Thanks. I have heard how hard this is from other survivors of childhood abuse. And I think it is hard for everyone else too. I have found a lot of help in the Being part of life and it is helping me to feel more confident and more competent in my life. That, right now, is what is helping me to in the Doing part of life. Step by step.
Good and healing thoughts to yous.
Kate
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Couldn’t agree more. It’s the doing that gives us confidence to keep doing, even when we struggle. It’s looking back and seeing improvement from that time when we started out as beginners, that instills a sense of accomplishment and self-worth that is crucial to healing!
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Hi Mike,
Thanks. I really agree with what you wrote. So many of us look back and judge ourselves so harshly. I think that giving ourselves more opportunities and more small accomplishments can help us all to feel more in control and more competent in our lives, which will improve self-esteem and self-worth. As you said, they are crucial to healing.
Good and healing thoughts to you.
Kate
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