I am trying to start lots and lots of things and put aside my thoughts and feelings about the starting. I have been working on this for some time, but really plan on committing a lot of time to these efforts once I have moved.
We all compare ourselves to some of the best artists and their best works and to the most healed survivors of abuse or others who were never abused as children or someone else just from the outside looking in and concluding what they are dealing with without really knowing the truth of their inner life and inner struggles. Comparisons like that are very daunting for anyone and cause us all to fear and to pause and to not make small efforts that will slowly, but surely bring healing and competence into our lives.
It’s important to remember that no one starts out proficient at anything, except a very few rare exceptions. Most of us start out as true beginners. Starting and doing are valuable, no matter where we are on our skill levels. No one learns skills or develops proficiency without practicing, doing, effort.
One thing is certain if we don’t start, we will most likely remain in the same place and space. Another thing that is certain is that life and our own soul, and others, will keep bringing us around to face this and help encourage us into doing. Doing may not feel like a healing tool. But it is. Doing is one of the most essential parts of healing, and indeed, in life.