One thing I decided to do for this year’s resolutions was to write down what I want more of.
This one tends to be on every year’s resolutions. I’m not sure if I am achieving this resolution each year, but I try and I enjoy it while trying.
This is one that I have been working on for a few months. I started walking some every day, if I can, and moving as much as I can each day as well.
I have been working on this as well. I have started to watch more comedies that make me laugh. Netflix online is great for this; some that make me laugh each and every time: Monty Python, Keeping Up Appearances, Blackadder, Red Dwarf, A Bit of Fry and Laurie, 30 Rock. Also there are repeats of some shows; Seinfeld and the Big Bang Theory. I also enjoy cartoons that make me laugh, especially the old Warner Bros. cartoons, Spongebob and The Emperor’s New School.
There are lots of things that I love to do that are play. The Littles love to play. The Teens love to play too, it is just more low-key things for them. I need to work more on identifying the things we want to do that we consider play and to find ways to do them.
I also am working on being more lighthearted with others. I like being like that and it is enjoyable to interact with others in a way that is silly. The Littles enjoy silliness and so do I.
More healthy eating.
This is something I work on every year. I am definitely moving in the right direction. I am buying some gluten free foods from the local food co-op and keeping track of the little teaching sessions they offer. I am thinking of doing that in the near future as well as buying a subscription for organic food from a local farm through the co-op this summer.
to protect myself from abusive behavior. I have to keep reminding myself that, you can leave, when I am not safe or not feeling safe or when someone is being abusive or manipulative towards me. I can leave. I can have that as a boundary. I don’t have to be with them. I can now take better care of myself.
More acquaintances, friends, interactions, and support.
Keeping my physical and financial challenges and limitations in mind, I am reaching out more to others. I want to do more. I want to find new people to do enjoyable things with. I can’t most of the time. But I can still do things online. Finding new friends is the most wonderful miracle for me.
I have joined three local meetup groups that I would like to get to a couple of meetings this year. I also found a science fiction/fantasy group that I would like to join. I am really excited about these groups.
I have spent a lot of time trying to figure out what I love, what brings me bliss, what I like, what I don’t like, what I do want, what I don’t want. I now want to spend more of my time with love.
More gentleness towards my body.
This is something that recently has really gotten a grip on me. Not just that I need to do it, but that a huge difference has happened in the last few months and I am free of some of the aftermath issues around this topic. I am not always gentle, but I am learning how to be gentle when doing basic cares and to learn how to nurture my body with love in my heart and a gentle, respectful touch while taking care of my body.
My body is in pain all the time. I have had chronic pain for over twenty-five years. I know that no reason is necessary for embracing comfort in my life. But somehow I still feel as though I need to have a reason to do it. This year I will try to be using comfort and become more comfortable with it. I will probably be writing about this on the blog.
More in nature.
It truly is like fuel for me. I realize that and want to assist myself in fueling myself and in nurturing that desire. I like being happy. Being in nature makes me happy.
See more beauty.
I do think that nature can be very beautiful. I enjoy that very much. Beauty can also be art and creativity. Beauty can also be many other things. Beauty can also be a part of daily life. I want to do that.
I’ve been able to get some used music cds in the last few months and listen to many of them. I am discovering new artists and getting some cds of artists that I love, but couldn’t afford, and finding some new great cds for listening to while relaxing, breathing, and doing Reiki. The music is making me feel very happy.
I have my craft things out, since getting them back from storage, and have started going through them. I have a bookshelf to put out some things and organize them. I figure that since they will be out, I will find it easier to start back into doing more creative things. I need to take out my digital camera and start using it. Once I get going on some things I want to start sharing more on the blog about it all.
I want to learn more skills. In creativity, in art, in life, in techonology, in advocacy, in starting a non-profit for survivors.
I want to work on healing more for myself and others. I want to live my life with healing in my mind and daily life, not just some of the time. I think that I have done a pretty good job of doing healing, but I want to do more. I want it to be my life as an opportunity for healing, whenever something comes up that is from the abuse or the aftermath of abuse, I want to be able to see it for what it is and to counter-act it in my daily life. I want to work towards that.