14. Rigid control of thought process; extreme solemnity/humorlessness or extreme wit (often sharp).
This one is probably the easiest one to post about. At first I thought I don’t deal with these issues, but then thinking about them shows that I do.
I have in the past had big issues with a need for rigid thought control. I had a lot of trouble seeing the world/people the way that they really were. I needed to believe the world was better, nicer, kinder, safer than it really was. It took me into a really bad, horrible, emotionally abusive relationship for me to accept how tthings really were. I guess he abused me out of it.
I already posted about how difficult it is for me to be happy and to show it. My face is a mask, despite my best efforts, it is still an issue. So I suppose on the outside I look solemn a lot of the time.
I have a very sarcastic sense of humor, at times, and am trying to get myself out of expressing that when it seems to be mean spirited towards others. I think that I used it as a self-defense.That is how all my family are and I know from deep personal experience how painful and wounding that can be.