Every survivor that I have ever interacted with about denial share they have gone through it for a time period after starting to have flashbacks of abuse. Some survivors go through it for years.
Their denial kicks in and they are tormented. They question their memories. They question themselves and accuse themselves of being a liar, of potentially ruining an innocent person’s life. They are concerned about God and eternity and burning in hell. I’ve heard this from a lot of survivors. I have read it on every message board I have ever been a part of.
It reminds me a lot of the old messages my mother, the sexual abuser, implanted into my little mind. It all sounds evil and vicious to do to a little child, while sexually violating them, to tell them they are worthless, that they are crazy, that they are lying., that we are going to burn in hell for all eternity.
These monsters, they take our innocence. They rape us and they revel in it. And then they want to fuck with our minds, our souls, our eternity.
We all deserved much better parents than that.