Songs for Healing #14

My Beautiful Reward

by Bruce Springsteen

Update

It looks like I will be moving out of here on December 3rd. I should get to Minneapolis, Minnesota on December 5th. Right now I don’t have a place to stay once I get to Minneapolis, but have about ten days to try to arrange for a place to stay with a relative for a short period of time. I don’t think that will work out so I will have to go to a homeless shelter until I can find a place to stay that I can afford. It would just be until I find a place and if I have to stay at a shelter, they are okay situations, from what I know of them in the past when I stayed in one in Minneapolis.  

I will try to find a room to rent that is furnished, because all of my belongings will still be in storage. I might be able to find a place near the University of Minnesota that would work out in the short term, that would be within my price range.

I wish that I would have gone back to Minneapolis from Ohio. But I had no where to stay there and that was the determining factor in my decision. I did not know all the facts, again, and so made a decision based on the information told to me.

Healing Poems #28

Butterfly

delicate silk
shredded on my
roughened fingertips

ethereal cobwebs
shimmer with dew
rent with a touch

angelic dust on
butterfly wings

such untouchable things

fingerprints leave
death in their wake

flight stole
death quake

love gentle wings
a gossamer touch
spring soon unburden
the vision too much

fall to my knees
reach to the sky
God softens rough hands
and opens my eyes

sprinkle with dust
sprout butterfly wing
I become and untouchable thing

transform me
with butterfly wings

truth it sounds
eloquent rings
ancient voice
clarity

sounds dirges
sound fragile things
hear my heart sing
butterfly wings

Sherry Gilles 1998 May 25

At My New Home

I’m at my new home and am slowly recovering from my bumpy journey. So glad that I will be able to sleep more and catch up with the last few weeks. Tonight is the first time I have been able to be online since Tuesday morning. I hated being without my computer. I am using someone’s great laptop. I am having incredible laptop envy.

I wanted to let everyone know that I have been thinking of you all so much in the last week and you have all given me so much love and support. I appreciate it so much. After being hurt by someone it is so nice to know that others do care about me and are nice to me. You all make me feel so happy to know that I am not alone. That is the nicest feeling in the world to me. Love to you all.

Songs for Healing #12

If I Should Fall Behind

by Bruce Springsteen

We said we’d walk together baby come what may
That come the twilight should we lose our way
If as we’re walking a hand should slip free
I’ll wait for you
And should I fall behind
Wait for me

We swore we’d travel darlin’ side by side
We’d help each other stay in stride
But each lover’s steps fall so differently
But I’ll wait for you
And if I should fall behind
Wait for me

Now everyone dreams of a love lasting and true
But you and I know what this world can do
So let’s make our steps clear that the other may see
And I’ll wait for you
If I should fall behind
Wait for me

Now there’s a beautiful river in the valley ahead
There ‘neath the oak’s bough soon we will be wed
Should we lose each other in the shadow of the evening trees
I’ll wait for you
And should I fall behind
Wait for me
Darlin’ I’ll wait for you
Should I fall behind
Wait for me

Healing Quotes #47

A friend may well be reckoned the masterpiece of nature. ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

Friends

I wanted to say something about friends and what they mean to me. I don’t think that I can begin to explain how much the abuses had damaged me, how much I loathed and hated myself, how much others merely tolerated my presence in their lives, how few friends I had and how rare it was that any of them valued or validated me.

I’m not sure that I can explain how magical and healing it has been online to find friends, real people, who really loved and cared for me, who saw me in the kindest light, who could see my pain and my abuse, and who did not run away from anything that I was going through, feeling, thinking, being. I can’t tell you in depth what precious beings they are to me.

I can’t say how much healing that has brought into my life, how much joy, how much happiness, how much self-love. The best friends are a mirror. They show us what we truly are and help us to see that truth, with love and compassion, with joy and magic. Yeah magic… friends are magic.

Okay back to the beginning of this post and my statement that I wanted to say something about my friends and what they mean to me. They mean the world to me. They mean the whole wide world to me. Thank you dears. I love you so very much.

Healing Quotes #46

A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you today the way you are.

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

This Train

Today I am completely moved out. The mover is strapping down the last trip to the storage place. I will be taking the bus at 5pm today, starting on my cross country trek. I have been through a lot of the states that I will go through in the next two days. If I am lucky I might hit one or two new ones on the way there. I hope so. I will be glad for all of this to be done and somewhere much warmer than here to be.

I won’t have a laptop to post during my trip, but I will check in with Vicki at Here in My World Blog via my cell phone and she promised to post a little something as I check in. To check on me click on Here in My World’s Blog link in my Blogroll.

This train… is departing. Good and healing thoughts to us all.

Songs for Healing #11

Land of Hope and Dreams

by Bruce Springsteen

Grab your ticket and your suitcase
Thunder’s rolling down the tracks
You don’t know where you’re goin’
But you know you won’t be back
Darlin’ if you’re weary
Lay your head upon my chest
We’ll take what we can carry
And we’ll leave the rest

Big Wheels rolling through fields
Where sunlight streams
Meet me in a land of hope and dreams

I will provide for you
And I’ll stand by your side
You’ll need a good companion for
This part of the ride
Leave behind your sorrows
Let this day be the last
Tomorrow there’ll be sunshine
And all this darkness past

Big wheels roll through fields
Where sunlight streams
Meet me in a land of hope and dreams

This train
Carries saints and sinners
This train
Carries losers and winners
This Train
Carries whores and gamblers
This Train
Carries lost souls
This Train
Dreams will not be thwarted
This Train
Faith will be rewarded
This Train
Hear the steel wheels singin’
This Train
Bells of freedom ringin’
This Train
Carries broken-hearted
This Train
Thieves and sweet souls departed
This Train
Carries fools and kings
This Train
All aboard

This Train
Dreams will not be thwarted
This Train
Faith will be rewarded
This Train
Hear the steel wheels singin’
This Train
Bells of freedom ringin’

Copyright Bruce Springsteen (ASCAP)

2005